Sep 28, 2006

So ConFuSing!!

hmm...it have been 10days...I Broke up

if he didn't suddenly bump to me with a sms...
perhaps I have forgotten him...
few days lately I am quite happy although without him...

since he had been so Annoying...
i had decided not to sms him anymore...

just then...few minutes ago...
i received one NEW MESSAGE...
unexpectedly...it was from him...
I am thinking: what he wants this time?

he asked:did you still keep my number in your friends and family list?do you angry on me?

"what the heck is this?why he still wants to know am i angry or not if he had been so annoying!?"

just cant understand him at all...

Sep 27, 2006

hihi!!!everybody...

how is everybody doing?
hmm..anyway just wish you all happy always no matter what unhappy events which have been happened to you...

so Am i here...once again..to write a little about myself, bit by bit, byte by byte...
hmm..dont you think it sounds odd?(i mean byte by byte...perhaps i just cant pull off myself from BITA..so called BUSINESS INFORMATION & TECHNOLOGY)

it has been days since i broke up with SomeOne...you will know who if you read my previous, previous, previous and previous blogs...hehe...how many "previous" are there?anybody here can help me count it?
OoPS..just kidding...i wonder why am i acting so Mischievous lately...

Good news over here!!
i have totally recovered from my "sickness" which i have been struggling with for past few days...perhaps it is just too few for you...but it is ample enough for me ...for i have been spending tanks and tanks of tears...do you believe it?

hmm...
errr...arrr

actually not that much..just bleeding...

Sep 26, 2006

SomeOne...

someOne...you should be familiar with...
i don't want to talk about someone's name
can you get my point here???

well...i don't know the reason why I would get along with someOne...
someOne is just so annoying...
before we Started our "linking"...we were friends,more exactly close friends...we talked about everything...from the stars in the sky to the ants on the road...someOne has showed more concern that made me felt that SomeOne can be my SomeOne...

perhaps someOne is just himself, who is so annoying at the very first place but i didn't realise until the last minute...
whoever someOne feels he or she is irritating, soMeOne will treat them in a bad way...

After we Broke up:
Obviously I am one of the members in the "Irritating" category...
thus, SomeOne treats me like whom in the same category...
at First i thought we can be like the old times when we talk aBout everything...but the outcome is always much much more disappointing..

whenever i Sms SomeOne, SomeOne will ask me in such a way:

...why you so free geh?you not very busy de meh?go find your friends and chat la...chat with a "fai chai" like me will only waste your time!!..

everybody who read this...if someone tells you in such way...what you will do?the very first impression is...he is not welcoming..

but SomeOne did say this everytime I sms SomeOne...again and again...
sometimes i wonder won't SomeOne feels so tired of repeating the same verse..
when i think of SomeonE's words...I found that it is very true...after all these while..i have spent so much time on this SomeOne who himself Said He's a FAI CHAI...so from now on...i wil try not to waste my time on him anymore since my existence is no more to be appreciated or welcomed...

perhaps I should say: why Shall I???




Sep 21, 2006

DaTinG is Not Fun As YoU ThouGht

it has been 2days away from the day I broke up with him...
today is the 3rd day...

still I feel sudden sadness...when I thought of it...
moreover now is holiday...the more time I will have...
i try hard to keep myself busy all the time
but still I cant control my tears from welling in my eyes

haiz...
it is true that getting into boy-girl relationship is not that fun as you may think
it may be sweet while you are with your honey but when you break up, everything will have 720° changes...
it is cruel...the same day you may have lots of sweety honey times but when this word cones out from either ones' mouth...
everything is totally indifferent...

one of my friends told me:the one who suggested to break normally will be bad guy or girl...
it is not proven until i really experienced it on my own

I, as the bad girl who suggested to break up...
but deep inside my heart, i still feel pain...
I don't know why he would have angry of me...but i know i have been hurting him much...
perhaps he thinks that I have been fooling him all these days...
or because I have started the relationship then i cut it off again...
I admitted that I am selfish...
I could have think about it very seriously before i started with him...
even if we are friends...he still cares about me but after we broke up
i am not sure whether can we be friends again...
he used to be part of my life...but now he is not anymore
it is my mistake...
but i cant undo it anymore and i was the one who decides the ending to be like that
so i should have no regret about it...

Sep 19, 2006

A meMory To be MesMerised

19 september 2006 Rainny day

Today evening has been raining cats and dogs...
I watched Underworld Revolution too...
and the most important event of today is...
i broke up with my first love..

Undeniably, I was so down...
hurt too...for i have been hurting him much...
if only i didn't start all these...

i can't even imagined everything was so fast...
just 41days
today i asked my mom(whom i have told him about my boyfriend before hand)to go out with him on thursday(5th time going out with him)
then my mom bumped this question to me:do you really want to get real with him?

ahhha...the secret that i didn't tell her is that i have been started with him a month ago...

first time we had a tea...
2nd time we went for a lunch...
3rd time we went for luch as well...the day we first held hands(too bad my dad saw us..soon my mom knew that and questioned me..but that time i only told them he is just my friend.)
4th time we went to times square..have a formal date...(secretly i told my mom that i was going with my secondary friends)
the day we had lots of fun...and that day we first kissed...

sometimes after school i will hang around at the handphone shop to see him...

but today everything just turned up to be sad...everything was so fine until i asked my mom's permission to go out with him...
and now i am here...writing and perhaps to have some sweet memories to be mesmerized...
every night around this time...he will be chatting with me but now EVERYTHING WAS NOT THE SAME!!!

The FinaLe...

after 41days...
here is the end of my first love...
31 July 2006 ---- 19 September 2006
yes!it is today...not long from now...

actually how did we start it...i am sort of blur..
but...
i was the one started all these and ruined all by myself...
very sarcastic huh?
indeed..in the end both of us get hurt!
am i too self-centred sometimes?i've been thinking about this from just now
why shall i let this happen?i should have never start this...

i was thinking is it right if i am still lying to my parents?
since i told my mom...she admitted that she was shocked plus down...
she asked me:why do you get him as your boyfriend?he is not high educated,dont he?
(honestly he isn't and he dont even finish his SPM and come all the way to KL from Ipoh to work,and his current career is a sales in a handphone shop...)
she said:even if you want to play with this kind of relationship you should have choose a higher qualification de...at least still a student...
(hmm...talk about play...did i really play this time?i also not sure..but i was the one who said:if you are my boyfriend then i will be song lo...then when he confirmed with me...true or not?i answered yes...
have i answered that wrongly?)

Sep 11, 2006

A SecRet oF MinE

Everybody will have something they didn't hope anybody to know..
so do I,as a normal human being

A Secret that my family know nil about it...but you will know if you read on...

SEcretly i am currently with relationship with a guy
from Ipoh,who come all the way here to work...
He works at the telecommunication shop which is near my house...
His name...cloud
at first we don't know each other...for all those days i only have some dealings with his manager...

Last time I was interested to find a part time job while i am studying...
so i asked the manager whether they want part timer or not...
but this guy, Cloud, got my cell phone number from his manager, without his permission...
he advised me not to work there because some employer-employee's problem...
in the end, i chose another option:work as a part time GC(general clerk at my previous working place)

Since he got my cell phone number...so we started to chat like normal friends...he is funny and caring...although we are just friends...and because his character...i started to have feeling towards him...plus he is not bad looking...

Soon after that...we clicked to each other...and become girl-boy relationship..
both of us didn't expect we will be girlfriend and boyfriend, but it just happened..
maybe this is what people says...fate...
what is that that bring us together....unitl now..it has been a month++we are in realtionship...
but still i didn't tell a word about him to my family

because i am afraid my family will object us...
he is not rich,and not having a stable career(for he says that working in handphone shop will not have bright future...merely selling handphones, prepaids, reload coupons, and services), not finished his spm yet...and he is not planning to study anymore...
all the above qualifications...i think 80%will not satisfy my family...
but we still went out for lunch secretly...
until one day...9 Septemeber 2006
what a coincidence that my dad saw us went to lunch...
for sure he questioned about who is he...but i just lied to them that he is my friend...
do you think i shouldn't act that way?
honestly i dont want to.. it is so hard to keep secret...and the fear that the secret will be uncovered...
so far my official first date with him is success but i lied to my mom that i was going with my secondary friends...
i am planning for another date with him..but should i lie again?
can you tell me?

How LoNG have I been AWay?

it has been a long long time i have not wrote anything on this blog...
how long?i really dont remember...
perhaps half month...or longer...

Hmm...yesterday was definitely a great day for the year...
10-9-2006 Sunday...
for i have been on a official date...with my first boyfriend...
i have mentioned him on my blog...
but it is ok if you dont know him...
his name is cloud...once you look into the sky you will sure find him...
hahaha...just kidding...
but it is true...his name is cloud...
we went to times square...
we went for a movie--little man
that movie is indeed a funny one to me...
perhaps it is funny to you as well..(most probably it is)
we had a great time...having meals together...watching movie together...
and not forgetting
we went to the cosmo park and had our great and marvellous experience there...
lots of excitement...
and it was sweet as well...because my first ride on roller coaster was with him...
we spent almost half day in the shopping complex
after playing in the cosmo park..soon we headed home...

oh ya...almost forgot something...on my way to the times square...we were lost!!haha..for it was my very first time to drive to kl on my own...without parents' guidance...
but luckily he was with me...that is why i was not scared...

on the way home...i did the same mistake again...went into the wrong direction but i managed to get back to the right track very fast...

Overall it was a pretty pleasant day...to be with him...

Sep 1, 2006

A NatiOnal CeLebRation...

hoho...do you know what is our grand celebration on 31st of August?

if you are MALAYSIAN,you should have know it....

ever since Malaya had gained its independence in the year of 1957
the day 31st August have been the most significant celebration all over the states..
no matter what kind of races,what ages, or sexes you are,
everybody celebrate this very annual celebration all together..for we have been freed from the rule of Western power...with the co-operation of the Malay,Chinese and Indian...

this year,2006 is the 49th celebration of the Independence Day...
however i have never been to any countdown celebration at any stadiums or shopping complexes..
THIS YEAR is the same as well...
and that's is the reason why i cane feel the mood of celebrating...
it seems like just another normal day or boring day(to be more specific)

the National Day's Eve, I was on the line...not the telephone line but online...
chatting with friends perhaps countdown at msn but still
i cant feel the heat of the grand celebration
how pity!!

some of my friends went to the sungai wang to countdown
suppose there will be lots of crowd
so i didn't go with them...

hmm...the conclusion is 30th and 31st of August just the normal days to me but because of this special day we manage to hve one day of holiday...
at last rest at home...

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